So, it’s been more than a hot minute since I blogged and I’m
sorry…. Sort of.
It’s been a rough one.
But, I feel like it’s always a “rough one.”
The holidays are a HORRIBLE time for me so getting through
them was about all I could do. I
honestly just tried to keep my head up and push through, like I always do. I didn’t even think about blogging. (Okay, so that’s a small lie.)
Now, the holidays are over and I’m here. Things are …. Better. Sort of.
I haven’t been reading as much but I met my goal last year
of 70 books so that’s fun!
I had my gall bladder taken out in December. I kept it super low key and just plowed
through that as well. I’m having minor
side effects but I’m still slowly introducing foods. I can’t handle coffee which BREAKS MY HEART
and I’m not sure how to get around it.
The surgery went swimmingly well and I had no problems besides dreams
about my stomach exploding and super swelling.
I lost 6 pounds so that makes me happy.
But, can I mention how MUCH I MISS COFFEE????? SO MUCH!!!
Any suggestions?
Oh, and I have problems pooping but no one wants to hear
that here.
My birthday came and went, very unexciting. I was recovering from surgery and feeling
sorry for myself.
I don’t really have much else to report. Still struggling with the struggle. My depression is better I think but my
anxiety is much worse. I’m all up in my
head, all of the time. Today is a bad,
bad day. I cried on the way to work and
then cried again once at work. I had ice
cream for lunch. I tend to hurt my own
feelings (who knew?) a lot when I have high expectations. I set these expectations and when they don’t
come true (I’m not sure how else to say it.), I get all hurt and in my head
about it.
I just want to be normal.
Or, whatever normal is. I want
what everyone else has, but then I have to tell myself that not everything is
shiny and as pretty as it appears on social media. I know there are people out there that would
like my life, that I complain about.
The cats are fat and still sassy. I keep telling myself that I need to cut back
on the treats but they are just so dang cute (and demanding).
I’ve been on the prepping train a lot lately too. (For those of you who do not know what this
is….I’ll gladly inform you hahaha). It makes
me feel somewhat in control and calm.
However, it’s become a bit of an obsession which is never a good thing. And with the new kung flu crap….I’ve been on
overload lately.
The weather in Ohio is KILLING me. Dreary, cold and rainy for WEEKS. I’m sure that’s not helping my
anxiety/depression. My doctor has
recommended vitamin D which I’ve been taking a few weeks now and it’s not
helping.
I cannot get up in the morning to save my life. Any suggestions on this? Everyone says it’s the coffee withdraw but it’s
been like 2 months now.
My fibromyalgia is under control, mostly. I’ve not had any “cake” since my last
blog. Not that it was helping
anyway.
I think that’s about it for now. I hope all you wonderful readers (all three
of you) are doing fantastic. I’ll try to
be better about blogging and sharing my journey!